Thursday, January 29, 2009
This bad mood.
I have been in this bad mood for too long now. It has really become tiring. When does it end?
I should mention that earlier this week I was feeling good. I was upbeat and positive and trying to cheer everyone else up.
But now, back to the usual bad mood.
I wish I could say why this cloud hovers over me. I guess it must enjoy being around me. I imagine that because of this cloud no one else enjoys being around me though. lol
I think my job is what keeps me under this cloud. But then, I keep myself at my job so I guess I have to take responsibility for the cloud.
I wish that I had the ability to let things roll off my back when they don't really matter. I also wish for the ability to confront things that do matter.
There is something other than work that has been bothering me lately.
A person that I am close to has an addiction. I think. All the classic signs of addiction are there, but an unconventional addiction it is. See, this person is addicted to the computer. Or, to be more specific, to an MMORPG (Massively Multi-player Online Role Playing Game).
Over the last year or so, this person has completely given up all social activities, rarely sees friends, has developed a fear of social situations, and places a high value on achievements that have happened in the game. This person no longer has achievements in real life. It is like the real world is no longer important and the virtual one is.
This game, has affected all of this person's social contacts. Including me.
I am getting to the point now, where I am considering cutting ties.
I have discussed my concerns with this person several times, but my concerns are brushed aside and ignored.
So now what do I do? I think this person needs help. Unfortunately, I am not listened to.
I am at a loss. How do I know when a relationship can be salvaged or not? I barely see or interact with this person anymore because the majority of the day's hours are spent online.
The majority meaning up to 16. I want a relationship with this person, but I cannot seem to take back my place of importance any longer.
This is breaking my heart every single day.
Anyone here have any advice?
I would appreciate it.