Friday, April 3, 2009
So I haven't posted since my birthday.
A lot has happened since then. I would love to say that my positive outlook would have stuck around but hey, no one really expected my moodiness to subside forever did they?
There are a lot of things going on in my life right now. Not all bad, thankfully. Some good and some bad. Let's start with the bad and get that out of the way so we can finish strong.
I got a call from my doctor's office. They need me to come in to do some tests. Some tests meaning a biopsy. The doctor is concerned that I may have the big C. That news hit like a ton of bricks. I'm proud of myself for only breaking down into tears three times since I heard that news last week. I'm sure there will be a few more breakdowns before I get results back. So, I am crossing my fingers and saying a few prayers.
So with the fear of real bad news coming from my doctor hanging over my head all week, my boss decided to ruin my weekend. I was trying to stay positive about what is going to happen to me medically, and I was actually having a good week work-wise. I was until about 5 pm today. My boss tells me on my way out the door that I need to start thinking about thinning out my staff.
Thanks for ruining my weekend by letting me know that I may have to ruin some one's life by telling them that they are going to be out of a job. Let them know that they are going to be out of a job in this shit economy. Tell them that they are out of a job in an area where jobs are a rarity. Pick one to go. How? How do I pick one to go? I am already short-staffed as it is, and now I have to cut someone out. This really upsets me. I just don't possess the big-business attitude. I'm not that heartless and cut-throat. But I will be reminded that it's just business. What the bureaucrats don't understand is that it is not "just business" it's "just some one's livelihood". That's all. Nothing big.
That leads me to my next bit of good news. I have been working on my photography and have started working on my photoblog. It still has a long way to go, but I am so glad to have an outlet. Whether it's any good or not has yet to be determined, but I am pleased so far. That's all that matters.
My last bit of good news is I get to see my niece tomorrow. Hanging out with a 2 1/2 year old will be the highlight of my day. I can't wait. :-)
Hope everyone is well.